Ok made it to evening

This time I will focus more about how I feel and less on telling you what I ate and what I did at the gym. I need to deal with the things that make me eat and how eating makes me feel.

Ok I made it to afternoon

I don't mind eating eating right so much. I just hate tracking everything I eat. I hate that eating healthy and being fit becomes who you are instead of just something you do. I hate being overweight and depressed more.

I am officially the heaviest I have ever been.

I have not been here for a long while and my last attempt failed completely. This does not mean I can just give up. I finally feel bad enough about myself both physically and mentally to know that I can no longer go on this way. I weighed myself today on my 450lb scale and in came up - - -. It can't even weigh my fat ass. I have been in denial. Today I will start anew what I know will be a long journey to saving my life.

-Sean