Here we go. I failed. Somewhere in November I lost sight of my goals and began taking comfort in food again. Once you start that downward spiral it takes ahold of you and it is hard to break free. I tried to start right back in several times and I found it too easy to say hey, I want this piece of pie I will just start back tomorrow. Well that is not going to work anymore. I have a lot to lose and a lot to prove and I am running out of time. I want my 40's to be the beginning of something. I want my 40's to be a second shot at my 20's I want to do things physically I never did because I couldn't do them physically. 3 days ago I turned 39. This gives me less than a year to reach my goal weight of 220. as of this morning I weight 389. Yep I gained some back. I now have an impossible amount of weight to lose in a short period of time. I am not going to think about wheter or not I can do this. I am just going to do this. Today is day one. I am resetting all of my counters and I am shooting for that first 60 lbs.
Pray for me and keep me honest.
Sean
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