Why am I doing this? - Day 2

When your fat (let's call it what it is. at this point I am not just overweight I am FAT!) you find yourself missing out on a lot of things in life because the world is not your size. You find that things you used to love are no longer within your reach. I can't buy clothes or shoes that I like because they are not in my size. I avoid certain restaurants because I cannot fit into the booths. I can't go to amusement parks and ride my favorite coasters because I will never fit in them. I cannot ride my bicycles because it hurts too much. I can't go to the pools because I don't want to subject others to a vision of me half naked. I mean let's be honest here. I weigh 450lbs and I wouldn't want to go to the pool and look at a bunch of people my size milling around in bathing suits! I pick my cars based on whether or not I fit in them more than whether or not I like them. Hell I pick everything based on whether or not it fits me or I can make it fit me.

The sad thing is I can remember riding these coaster and riding my bike and swimming laps in the pool. It is easy not to miss something when you don't know what your missing.